By now I'm sure some of you have heard the news and with much regret I admit it is true. I did in fact take steroids in the late '90's while employed at Greene's Ale House in Oswego, New York. It's time I came clean.
First, I'd like to apologize to my family and friends for dragging you through the mud. When I took the job I swear it was never my intention to take job enhancing drugs. I only intended to use recreational drugs (to which I admit also happened) and it was a downward spiral from there. I was a typical college student who fell prey to the temptations of experimentation. When working three nights a week til 3am on top of 15 hours a week of in class time I began to feel a great deal of fatigue. And although I could live with academic mediocrity, I simply couldn't allow it to affect my job. Those of you who know me well, I routinely throw myself into my work with no concern for my well being. And this dedication caught up with me in the Fall of '97.
After less than 2 months on the job the academic pressures began to catch up with me. I was exhausted from over studying but went to work anyway. And on a busy Saturday night tossing kegs around in the cooler I sustained a serious knee injury which still exists today. Afraid that I would no longer be able to compete with my fellow bar back and move up to bartender I did in fact knowingly take performance enhancing drugs. Within weeks I was promoted and even given my own set of keys to the bar. With this instant status jump I became addicted to the celebrity. Flocked by numerous fans and countless ladies I went on taking "roids" until my performance was back up to my standards.
Eventually, the guilt of what I had done not only to myself, but also the shame I was bringing to my fellow bartenders was too much to take and I was able to get off the juice cold turkey. I realize it may seem trivial to reveal this a decade later but I believe it's imperative to finally find closure. Anyone who I may have hurt along the way I am truly sorry. I hope I can be forgiven and I swear on my Mother's good name that when I won Bartender of the Year the past 2 "seasons" I was completely drug free. I will understand if some of my loyal drinkers pull their votes this year. I brought this on myself and except full responsibility. It is my hope that we can all put this embarrassing stage of my life behind us and move on.
Thank you.
First, I'd like to apologize to my family and friends for dragging you through the mud. When I took the job I swear it was never my intention to take job enhancing drugs. I only intended to use recreational drugs (to which I admit also happened) and it was a downward spiral from there. I was a typical college student who fell prey to the temptations of experimentation. When working three nights a week til 3am on top of 15 hours a week of in class time I began to feel a great deal of fatigue. And although I could live with academic mediocrity, I simply couldn't allow it to affect my job. Those of you who know me well, I routinely throw myself into my work with no concern for my well being. And this dedication caught up with me in the Fall of '97.
After less than 2 months on the job the academic pressures began to catch up with me. I was exhausted from over studying but went to work anyway. And on a busy Saturday night tossing kegs around in the cooler I sustained a serious knee injury which still exists today. Afraid that I would no longer be able to compete with my fellow bar back and move up to bartender I did in fact knowingly take performance enhancing drugs. Within weeks I was promoted and even given my own set of keys to the bar. With this instant status jump I became addicted to the celebrity. Flocked by numerous fans and countless ladies I went on taking "roids" until my performance was back up to my standards.
Eventually, the guilt of what I had done not only to myself, but also the shame I was bringing to my fellow bartenders was too much to take and I was able to get off the juice cold turkey. I realize it may seem trivial to reveal this a decade later but I believe it's imperative to finally find closure. Anyone who I may have hurt along the way I am truly sorry. I hope I can be forgiven and I swear on my Mother's good name that when I won Bartender of the Year the past 2 "seasons" I was completely drug free. I will understand if some of my loyal drinkers pull their votes this year. I brought this on myself and except full responsibility. It is my hope that we can all put this embarrassing stage of my life behind us and move on.
Thank you.
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